Friendly's

Hi Mom,

I miss you so much. I've been having such a

hard month. The grief literature tells me

that it's because I'm leaving the

shock phase of your death.

Lucky me. The grief is supposed to get

harder now. I didn't think it could get any harder,

but it is. This morning, I went to Friendly's

for the first time since you've died.

We sat at the table where we ate lunch with the kids right after we found out you were sick.

We had the same waitress that served us

all of the times that we'd been to

Friendly's together.

I couldn't help but stare at the table we

sat at the last time we ate at

Friendly's together. It was empty.

Mom, I miss you so much. Nothing is the same

without you. I want life

back the way that it was. I want you back.

Dad and I cry every time we're together.

We talk about you laugh and then cry.

It would be funny if it weren't so sad.

One day I know that I will be able to do

things without crying. One day I know that my

grief won't be this bad. One day I know that I will see you again.

I love you Pal. I miss you Pal.

I'd do anything to have you back Pal.